July Rewards Sent! (Patreon)

It took forever but rewards are finally sent! If you paid for July rewards and haven't received a message, please let me know!

Whew, I'm back! I certainly took my sweet time lol but for good reason. By that I mean my motivation issues have been fixed. Turns out its a combination of things but mainly:

• Lack of Sleep - I was sleeping between 3-6AM and waking up at 12PM everyday for the past few months and that made me cranky and drained.
• Unsatisfying Linework - This one is a bit technical, but I was trying to develop a clean and 'manga' like lineart but clean lines simply isn't my forte. I only noticed this once I got back to drawing because apparently I was too tunnel-visioned and couldn't place it before >.<
• "Efficiency" - I've been adding 1 minute timelapses for my art for $10 patrons. It was something I did as a nice bonus but I realized that it was actually putting unnecessary pressure on me because I wanted to look perfect in my timelapse. That meant that I was forcing myself to draw perfectly, like I obsessed over nailing down a curve in 1 stroke, I avoided undoing too much so it would seem that I'm blazing through my art, or I avoid redoing stuff etc etc. In short, I was trying to make myself seem perfect and in the long run it snuck up on me and gave me so much frustration. I made an imaginary "supervisor" who watches behind my back when I draw lol

Anyway those are the main things and I'm happy to say that I pretty much squared them away. I fixed my sleeping schedule, like I actually wake up at 8AM everyday. Once I start waking up early, everything just seemed to sort themselves and I feel like I have a lot more energy and time during the day! For linework, I pretty much gave up on having clean lineart and embraced my rough linework :P I think my strength lies in my coloring anyway. For efficiency, I just dropped timelapses altogether and just focus on the process of drawing itself. Timelapses are nice to do from time to time but I no longer want to make it a habit.

Oh yeah I also played a bunch of games and caught up with other stuff without feeling guilty about doing them. Overall, I think the break absolutely did wonders for my mental and physical well-being! Now it's time to get back and draw draw draw!

That's all for now, as always thanks for your support! ^^