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Im super happy to tell y’all that I’m finally moving together with my boyfriend!
Ive spent some of my darkest moments in this old household and that made my head connect every single room and even piece of furniture with a time when I was miserable. For example, I work in the living room and it was there where Ive had most of my panic attacks and where I spent countless days staring at the TV praying for just a twinge of comfort and normalcy.
Ngl I don’t think my head would be able to endure a single extra day in my old apartment. I been living all alone for almost a year and I think that really shows in my art performance. I been feeling really nauseated and suffering body pain due to stress, so I always felt like I had to give it my 120% in the couple of hours in the day when I wouldn’t feel shitty *sigh*
Fortunately whenever I am with my boyfriend, most if not all of the stress and nausea is gone and my head remembers that this painful moment is just temporary and doesn’t define me. I finally relax and think clearly about the future I wanna spend alongside with him……..and that makes me really hopeful about the future cause I know Im the most creative and capable whenever I feel that emotional safety net.
I also need to thank my closest friend circle, who’s been with me throughout these awful times. Im fortunate enough to always have someone to call whenever i feel like I’m about to have a mental breakdown and they never perceived me as a burden. They’d even pay unscheduled visits and let me stay at their place during my darkest hours. Thank you so much and I promise I wont let any of them down by showing my true confident self!!