Pausing Patreon (Patreon)

Hey my darlings, just a quick notice to let you know I have decided to pause my Patreon for the month of January. This means you won't be charged on the 1st of next month, and I'll be largely inactive here!
(long personal post ahead, feel free to skip! The above is all that's important to know ^^)

I didn't want to start the new year in such a sluggish way, but I feel like I have no other choice;;; Because, in primis, my health is...not good atm.
Aside from the persistent flu otitis has left me with, which is just mainly annoying and not much of a concern for me, what worries me is my heart...it's been a really long time since it had last troubled me so much, and I'm worrying a bit.
For those who don't know, I was born with severe tachycardia, which means my heart starts beating really fast and, unlike regular tachycardia that's annoying and makes you feel a bit fatigued, severe one causes acute pain, paralisis, impossibility of speech, huge difficulty to breathe and in most severe cases, fainting and/or an "attack" that feels like a mini heart attack. I've actually been to the ER for that in the past (fainted multiple times, had two actual attacks) with an orange code (here is right below red, almost most urgent code), and it's not something I like to play with.
Usually though, I'll have trouble for a couple hours, a couple days at most, and then be done with it; this time this has been troubling me for almost a week now. I can barely get in an hour of work before pain kicks in, I can't breathe anymore, and I'm forced to lie down and rest, rinse and repeat for the rest of the day, for days. I'm really tired tbh...
Sadly the doctor is not a viable option right now because they're not much of help from past experiences, they can't prescribe anything aside from a mild de-stressing med, and even if they could...it's a long story, but basically in this new town I can't go to the doctor yet, only way for me to get prescription is returning to my old town and see my doc there. And I don't really feel like spending hours (and money) in public transport to get there, all on my own (my brother is still attending classes until next week). I'm almost confident things won't get worse but it's ok, if they do there's always the ER! It's free here in Italy to boot, so yay xD
Sorry for the wall of text, but I wanted to make sure you know exactly why I'll be inactive and that I'm not avoiding you guys, or my duties, for laziness or anything! It's really stressing me a lot tbh that I can't do what I had promised you I'd do, I'm so sorry TvT

Anyways, second reason is that I really want to catch up more on things! I don't want to start the new year with this burden on me, I want to finish off as many old things I can before I take in new ones! I'll of course have to still post the occasional ych and/or adopt to make ends meet, but hopefully it'll all be simple stuff I can manage! (speaking of which, I may not be able to finish the promised wintery/holiday adopt set by this weekend as promised...I'll do my best, in case I can't I'll upload the P2U base I had planned to release next week!)
I had a lot of people this week alone asking me about commission progress, which is only rightful of them to do, I'm the one taking a lifetime, but I'll be honest and say it's been stressing me more than usual nonetheless, so yeah, I wanna focus on finish older owed art first ^^
I'm really realizing that if I want this to be my living I need a new way to approach my workload, or I'll always be stuck in this limbo of having too much on my plate but still taking more to pay bills (and finding myself with no energy and/or free time) and I don't want that, I don't want you to wait so much on your things, and I also want more time to work on my own projects and talk more with my friends! So things gotta change! òvo9

So, uhm, yeah....super sorry for the long post, it's wayyyy longer than I initially intended to ahah..." But yup, just wanted to let you know that I'll be kinda inactive and why, and that you don't have to worry about next month's pledges 'cause it's all paused and you won't be charged! ^^ Thanks for your attention, and hope you're having a safe, cozy and happy holiday season ♥♥♥