get to know me! (Patreon)

you probably know me a little or not all  and are wondering what i'm doing with your pledges ...so here is my story.

Gloria,27,female congolese and live in france!

last year have been so crazy for me before corona and i'm still fighting with the destinies so far!

i would like to thank all of you who ,helped me out by your patreons!

thank you so much! you have no idea how much you are helping me!

you helped me eat ,pay my school equipement and helpt me buy new clothes in order to look clean for school and helped me pay for my spycologist as well. i had a pretty hard life last year,=; scamming abusing boyfreind...fake freinds...cover crazy religious family...trauma (that involve asault),a job that i used to hate (being a stripper)

i had hard time finding myself and knowing who i was...thanks god i met my boyfreind who helped me out :).

i'm not trying to make a sob story here because,i don't see myself as a victim,you can't see yourself as a victim at some point.

sims really helped me clear my head and forget about the dark side of my past.

In the past,I had 700 euro left in my bank account and nowhere to go,I couln't go back to my family because they were too religious for me eventhought i love them very much.

my boyfreind find me at my old job,took care of me and helped me find the person I used to be in the past.I'm still learning to let go of past (my anger egainst my abuser) and forgave my family eventhought we forgave eachother ,it still hard for them to accept that I don't xwanna be a christian anymore and that my boyfreind isn't christian and also very older than me (age gap),i'm still healing and tell myself to forged the past and move on (it very had Iwon't lie).

(what does this story have to do with us?)

well...seing you pledging to my cc made me feel alive because,i forgot who i was and even forgot how it felt like to have a normal life,see the sun and wear normal clothing without worry about "night life".

having you guys supporting me made me fall in  love egain with who I used to be : the non perfect,joyfull little gloria...

and for this... I thank you all with all my heart!

i really hope that i will graduate from this school and get a real job...so that i won't have to make patreon cc no more and just enjoy making free cc...

did you know that i used to make free cc? i used to do that when i had a normal job in the past...saddly...my old job didn't give a full contract ...in france having a contract called "CDI" is a contract that allow you to have a job forever (unless your compagny fired you or if the company dismiss itself"

since i wasn't a french cityzen...they din't want me to stay ,atleast,they din't want to make me work fulltime...because "it was too expenssive for them"...

that why i end up being a dancer in a cabaret in paris...

my toxic freind told me mother about it in order to expose me i think? (we weren't in good term anyway...) 

eventhought my mother was dissapointed in me and very worry and ashame of what "her christian daughter was doing...she knew , i had to do it to eat and survive,lucky me,I used to work in a almost safe cabaret in paris ,it was a 5 stars cabaret so I was safer...eventhought i had to deal with racism from my coworker and racist remark about my nappy hair or my african accessories or even racism from costumers...it was a little bit nice but...my sould was starting to get eaten alive by darkness...specially with racist sourounding and a abusive japanse ex boyfreind...

your patreons helped me a lot ,eventhought my (new boufreind ) boyfreind pay for my school and i live rent free...i'm still do my best to depend on myself and try my best to never ask him any money...since he have his own struggles (since corona happen) and also because i was raise to never ask money...so paying for me things made me a little but guildty and i hated it.but he understood how i felt ...and lucly me he wasn't controlling and actually quite normal.

having your support really helped me heal from my trauma by waking up and asking myself "hmmm what a'm i going to make for my patrons today?" instead of "i can't believe my abuser trauma bonded me or "i want to die"...your support helped me a lot and i wanted to let you know that you actually helped me healing my wounds and made me believing in myself and for that...thank you so so much...i love you guys!!