I lied to myself (Patreon)

Remember that time when I said that I would not work on any more commissions for the rest of the year? After I finish the last one, I can work on my own projects? I don't know why I said that. Maybe I was too confident or I had too much toxic positivity that I thought I could finally fix my problems such as the house and the car, and finally, I could be free to work on my own projects.

But, I was wrong.

My car has more problems again, and they’re more than ever before. On top of that, I haven't fixed the house, yet, because I wasted all my savings by fixing my useless car. The only car that my family needs to take my nephews to school, take my sister to her job, take my parents to the hospital in case of emergency, and do other important chores. Basically, I'm their driver. Even though I have a full-time job, it's not enough to pay for the repairs. I barely can pay the bills such as the condo, electricity, internet, and telephone. My parents are retired, and yet, what they gain from their pension, is not enough to pay the bills or fix the house on a monthly basis (f***k you, PDVSA). This will never end, will it?

Last week, my car broke due to radiator problems and overheated. Something that I didn't expect would happen. On top of that, the mechanic found more broken pieces in the radiator that needed to be fixed. And it would be too risky if I were to drive that car in those conditions, that would break the engine completely. Now I have no car at all.

For me, it wouldn't be a problem because I used to take the bus ever since high school and in my days at university. But for my parents who are too old to walk long distances and are not used to taking the bus, it is. And on top of that, my sister doesn't have her own car to take the kids to school. Which, every time I think about it, it stresses me out and I feel guilty about it.

With all that said, I decided to reopen commissions again.

However, this time, I’m going to make some changes in the way I work on commissions. I’m not going to put the details right now, so I will leave that in my next post when I announce my new rules and process in commissions.

Also: I'm starting to reconsider reopening comic/manga commissions again. But, I'm still undecided about whether to do that or not. So I will announce that when I reopen commissions,

And I think that's all. I hope you understand my current situation and I hope you can support me financially, even for one dollar every month, on Patreon or Buy Me A Coffee.