Poolside Wallpaper (NSFW) (Patreon)

Hey guys, here's the wallpaper version of yesterday's gallery ☺️

A curious fact that I wanted to share with you, because I know that some of you have to deal with this kind of insecurities as well: I had the idea to make this wallpaper while I was still in bed, unable to do much by myself. I had a few ideas back then that I'm working on now that I can finally work (a little) again. The thing is, it took me a little more time than I expected (shadows are complicated to draw), but when I finished it and looked at the whole thing, a strange thought crossed my mind: "Who would be interested in looking at an older guy like you like this?".

I have my own insecurities, but this was the first time in a long time that such a thought had crossed my mind. I struggled a lot with this kind of thoughts in 2016-2018, I was starting my public career as an artist and as a guy who always thought of himself as the ugly one in every situation (relationships, work...) it was very hard for me to see myself in pictures, music videos and so on. But I learned to put all that behind me. Therapy helped a lot. I decided that guys like me needed more representation and I was willing to put myself out there if it would help anyone.

And to my surprise, it did. I started getting messages, emails and feedback from guys who found what I was doing very helpful in their lives. It was a wonderful moment and I'll always be grateful for the opportunity.

So now, fast forward to 2024, after a major surgery and two weeks where I really thought I wasn't going to make it, that thought came back. Am I making a fool of myself? The answer is "I don't know, but just in case, I'm not going to stop". So here you go, hope you like the wallpaper. Please let me know ☺️

In the next few days I'll be recording up to three dj sets for you, any suggestions? Do you want me to record them on video as well?

Happy Tuesday 😘 ❤️