Early Photoshoot! 📸 (Patreon)

Good morning guys, today while going through my vault looking for stuff to use in the music video I'm working on for "Turn Back The Clock" I found this selection of pictures from my first "official" photo shoot as Benjamin Koll 🐼

The pictures were taken by my (now) husband during my first visit to Guadalajara (Mexico) on April 29th, 2015. At that time I had decided to quit my career as a mainstream music producer to follow this dream of mine to finally dare to be an artist myself, and we were looking for ways to present myself. I was sure of some things: I wanted to present myself as a gay bear, I wanted everything to be sexy (this is an advice Jean Michel Jarre gave me a few months earlier in a very interesting conversation we had in Amsterdam in October 2014) and I wanted it to look aspirational.

That's how we came up with this first part of the photo shoot where I kind of acted like the Hulk ☺️. It was a playful way of avoiding shyness and fear of the camera. Some of these I had edited more in the past, some of them are new to you, but all of them are more or less as they came out of the camera, with just light and color fixes that Martin added at the time.

Thank you so much for your comments and messages these days, they mean a lot. I'm approaching the middle part of my chemo treatment and the CAT scan tests are coming up on December 4th. It's the norm to do them at this point when the 4th cycle ends, but still a little scary (and expensive), so your support really matters. Thank you ❤️

Have a great Saturday 😘 ❤️