Thank you for October! (Patreon)

Sorry this is a little late! But thank you so much for October! As always, it means a lot that you guys stuck with me, and if there is any feedback or anything you'd like to see more of please don't hesitate to tell me and I will endeavour to do my best to make adjustments!

I hope that the kinktober list and the spice of different MHA pairings/characters made October a bit more of an interesting month! Sad I couldn't get through all of Kinktober, but as voted by you guys, I am keeping the remaining prompts for future doodles, sketches, artworks or comics.  

Thank you for your support!  I look forward to seeing what November holds!

Beyond here will be a life update so if you don't wish to continue reading that's perfectly fine!  
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Sadly things have not been going well for me in real life, and in truth, the prospect of getting a job before the christmas period is starting to look more and more grim and unlikely. Being homeless became severely real when I visited a free welfare financial advisor who basically told me that I don't have many options other than finding a job.
I have yet to secure a job, but I have in place asked for assistance from a family member (much to their displeasure) for financial assistance to help me at the least not be homeless if I'm unsuccessful finding work.  

And as a result of everything, a whole month+ of stress has hit me like a wave all at once, causing some issues with my mental health and stirring the pot of other things I've tried to suppress like my gender/face dysphoria.

Not even my art has been unstained by the stress and while I am trying to keep going and do the best I can, I have been struggling for awhile now with it.  
Many negative questions have been swimming in my head like sharks, and I have been struggling with comparing my art to artist's I admire and instead of being motivated to 'work harder' I find myself being discouraged.
I've become caught in this sea of black, trying to reach the shore but being pulled constantly back out to where the sharks are. It's not been easy and I don't know how to fix it cause I know both my mindset and my art needs fixing. 

But art has become such a massive part of my identity as a person that giving up feels wrong, like I'd lose a big piece of myself. So things may be a little rough for awhile, as I try to find my way in my personal life and as well with art. I do hope you'll stick with me, but if not that's alright as well, I will continue to try my best in whatever form my best decides to take that day!  

If you read this far, thank you and I'm so sorry you had to listen to my rambling! I just wanted to be transparent a bit about my life circumstances right now and how it is affecting me and my art overall.