Felka, the tribulations of love, and You. (Patreon)

It’s still crazy to me that this secret, low-key art project I started nearly 3 years ago is growing every day thanks to you. I never thought anyone would see themselves in my voice or become more positive and happy because of me. Every day getting to make videos for you is a gift. You have made me feel so special and seen. I want to do the same for you. In short, thank you for being here. I feel like I’m just getting started :)

By nature, I’m a sensitive person. I love love and truly get up every day with the purpose of being happy. That’s not to say that I AM happy every day, no no. But I do believe that with time, work, and luck, I can find love and create my dream life. Booo, how cheesy. Hear me out…

I don’t talk about my personal life a lot on here. That’s mostly to keep YOU at the front focus of each and every audio. But I think that sharing might just help somebody. So let me say… finding love is hard for me. Really, really hard.

It’s not that I’m mean or have a medical condition that makes me stink like gasoline 24/7 (though I quite like the smell of an old garage lol). I don't click with most people. And the ones that I do, well, it’s that I know that I am worth so much. You have to be damn cool to be worthy of my company. I’m not going to settle because I know that there is a love waiting for me… these things cannot be rushed.

I’ve met amazing, good people over the past 3 years of setting out into the world with my heart on my sleeve. I’ve learned so much and definitely don’t regret any relationship for a second. Each person taught me so much about what I want out of a partner and out of life. But… damn, it can feel lonely. We get our hopes up and when it doesn't work out it can feel like all of that effort was for nothing. Sometimes, I wonder if love is even real. But tell me, what kind of life would it be if we just gave up? I won't let that happen and I certainly will do my best to continue making audios that inspire you to keep going on your own journey.

It’s normal to feel like the odds are against you and that all the good people are already taken. But my friend, this is a part of the journey. Nothing worth having is easy to find. (Reminder to felka: read that last line back when you're on your floor eating ice cream after a brekaup feeling like love isn't real xD).

They say that you find it when you least expect it. And so here's to us. Trusting and believing that our long search will one day pay off. I cannot guarantee anything for you, but I can be here alongside you on your journey. Speaking of... you.

Thank YOU for being here. It warms my heart when we talk in the comments. Support each other. It makes me so happy that the audios can help even just a little. It's hard out here, I'm not going to tell you that it isn't. But having a space where we can support each other judgement-free is so beautiful. Thank you for being here, thank you for believing in me!

From a yet again heartbroken felka, remember. It is better to love than to never have loved at all. And I looove making audios for you. Thank you for loving them, too. :')

With lots of love,

felka