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Garrett

Watched you for over two years now and i’ve been waiting so long to see your reaction to this!!! omg

robbie

i dropped everything i was doing when i got the notification omg

Ariel

Been waiting for this one!!! 😭

Portia Crain

I will never be ready

Jahnae Phillip

This is the one I’ve been waiting for!! Ready to see how you’ll react to it

Official Bravo Nation

This is the one episode I can’t bring myself to watch 🤦🏾‍♀️

Brigitta Spethson

I have had to just not comment on the last 5 or so episodes because anything I wanted to say would have spoiled this. So excited to finally be able to comment again.

Ariel

You explained it so well, I didn’t like Derek but his death was so tragic. Mer has been through too much, Amelia has lost so much, they didn’t need to lose him too.

Cepheus

Ah yes! Your tears give me life. Good reaction! The McTruck came out of nowhere lol

ingrid vedeld

This episode is so sad and unfair😭😭😭💔Head CT PEOPLE!!! I feel so bad especially for for Mer and the kids and Amelia.

Michael Mitchell

Never liked Dr. McDouche, I felt bad for Meredith though. As awful as it sounds, I prefer him dying rather than him and Meredith getting a divorce and he's written out as a deadbeat dad who's never around his kids. That would have made me hate him even more, this way he can get a sort of "hero's death" and Patrick Dempsey can leave the show. But yeah I feel for Meredith and also Amelia

Portia Crain

I liked derek, and always thought while I hate the way he left the show but I feel it's the only way, because I didnt think before this season that he'd ever leave Mer and he'd never leave those babies willingly!!!

hay roverana

fun not so fun fact- dereks actor was cheating on his wife with the actress who played leah murphy and the actress who plays meredith told his wife causing him to leave the show to save his marriage

Clay W

I'm on the same train of thought as you. I don't like Derek, never have, but I'm so sad for everyone he's leaving behind. Meredith, Amelia, the kids, pretty much everyone at the hospital. Also, the way he went out was rather disappointing. He might've lived if that dick of a doctor had just listened and got a CT.

Savannahhh

No matter how many times I've seen this, I still SOB every single time

dd

I will say a few episodes back when Meredith and Derek were fighting and you were like “It’s time for the big D…Divorce!” I was like “Welll….Theres another big D buddy….Death!” 😂😂

Mayaaa

This episode never fails to rip my heart into tiny pieces 😭

Justin

You really have to do the next two episodes back to back for us!! Pretty please lol

Bernd Geels

Shonda really knows how to rip your heart out of your chest doesn't she? By this point in the series some fans stopped watching because of all the horrible traumatic deaths...ie the plane crash in Season 8 Finale, the hospital shooting and on and on. It seems at least once per season Shonda kills off a major character. Blah.

Estrella Mendez Fragoso

omg i don't like dereck either but this episode always makes me cry like a little girl, i'm right there with you, was there no other way to get out of the show? sometimes i think shonda hated us and liked to see us suffer

Serenity La’sandra

“I’m gonna die because these people aren’t properly trained” 😭😭😭💔

Lauren

I can't believe you've made it to this episode! It's crazy how fast it's gone by. I don't remember how, but when this aired originally I knew Derek was dying. I bought wine and told everyone in my life to not contact me because I was watching Derek's death. Even knowing it was coming (and hating Derek) I cried for hours I agree about giving more people the Cristina Yang treatment. It drives me nuts. Shonda thinks differently though. She has said she thinks it's better to kill a character than to think of them moving away from their kids. (this was her excuse for killing Mark) Because it's so much worse to have your dad living in a different city than you than it is for them to be dead....Ok Shonda.

Alicia Cue

i’ve been waiting for this episode whewwww😭 watching it live made me stop watching for a good year at least deadass i was pissed😭me and my mom were literally GOBSMACKED like no way no way no way they’re killing derek??? derek??? it was all just so fucked uppp! making his character arguably the worst he’s been since like S3, turn him around, make me love him again, then kill him off??? and not even in a season finale?? ???? crazy despicable work Also word on the street is this, Patrick Dempsey (derek’s actor) was cheating on his wife. shonda rhimes and Ellen Pompeo were both close friends with his wife. once shonda found out about the infidelity, she killed his ass off😂😭 shonda has zero tolerance for certain shit i guess lmao and an ex executive producer said that shonda and patrick did not like each other, he would supposedly hold the set hostage in way, didn’t care about the show much anymore and was a general dick on set, even ellen had issues with his attitude. according to him, several cast members had PTSD from him terrorizing the set. it got to a point where (allegedly) shonda said either he goes or i go. i’m sure if she did find out he was cheating on her friend, that would’ve exasperated their issues. but yeah i do remember being real mad watching this, it felt like the show itself lost something when he died; he wasn’t a great character, in fact i hated him more than i like him, but you cannot deny that he was an integral part of this show. and poor amelia, poor zola and bailey and ofc meredith like this is a death that will ROCK every damn body in this show.

Serenity La’sandra

Meredith better than me because I’d be like bitch my husband is dead, I’m not about to give you a fucking pep talk 🤣 yes she needed to hear it, and this isn’t against her… but Meredith giving her this Richard Webber level pep talk where she’s like “how do you know?” Like girl… MY HUSBAND IS DEAD 😭😭

Serenity La’sandra

I’m sorry I’m evil but I’m laughing at the idea of, imagine if this was actually all a dream? And you deal with all the heartbreak just for him to walk back through the door 🤣 Shonda would REALLY be fucked up for that 🤣🤣

Jahnae Phillip

I guess the thought behind it is that Derek would never divorce Meredith and just leave her for good, so Shonda said we’ll just kill him off 😭😭😭 I remember watching this and I had known it was coming but still couldn’t help all the tears and crying

Shaun Beyond

Correct me if I’m wrong, but didn’t they advertise Derek’s death before the episode aired in real time? I started this show knowing that Derek eventually died because of commercials from that episode.

Domo

Still can never really watch this episode all the way through. They can never just let us chill for a season 😭😭 I hate it but I love it

Matty Ryan

Derek was my least favorite character but this is by far the saddest death to me. I forgot how emotional it was until this rewatch. I feel so much for the rest of the characters who will be impacted :(

Alexis Grande

I still remember like if it was yesterday when I saw this episode air. I couldn’t even focus in class the day after, I was actually grieving lol

Bradey Bononcini

Yeah Patrick is an excellent actor but word on the street is he’s not pleasant to work with. And that’s an understatement.

Kocia

I don't get how Mer didn't have Alex, Maggie or Amelia with her. To the point of getting a social worker to look after the kids while in the hospital? You'd call your person. Great reaction as always Travis!

SuperEllen

Every time you shit talked Derek this season, I was there rubbing my hands with an evil grin on my face waiting for this episode to arrive. At some point I was so waiting for it that each episode I was like "is this the one?" and even though I remembered that the previous one ended with Meredith and police lights, and that this episode started the same way, every episode I was still waiting for it even more! I like Derek and I never got through this episode, even if it was literally more than a decade ago. Every time I'm sad and I need a good cry, I rewatch Grey's Anatomy starting from this episode. And it kills me every time. I think that what's more painful is that at this point, it was difficult to imagine that Derek would actually die. He's been the male protagonist since the first episode of season 1! This is the character death that took almost everyone by surprise. And for first time watchers, it's always a punch in the guts! I feel you, Travis!

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I will never forget how much I cried the first time I watched this.😭😞 Travis saying no as soon as the song started playing is so real cus huhhh😭

AprilDawn

It would be nice to do that, or both episodes in one video, right?

AprilDawn

I'm just glad I never watched it live, because I think it would be a lot harder. Even with how they do finales sometimes and you don't know what's going to happen. Then you have to wait months before you find out. I enjoyed binge watching every season back-to-back, but then I got to the end of all the seasons and then had to wait for the next ones from then on. LOL

CLS

The first time I watched this episode I was inconsolable. I've now seen this episode about 10 times probably and I always cry. 😭

Alicia Cue

they advertised the accident, not that he died. so going into the episode we knew something was gonna happen, but a lot of people didn’t believe they’d actually kill him off

Lauren

I think they did because I remember knowing Derek was dying before this episode. There was a lot of behind the scene drama going on with Patrick Dempsey at the time so it could have been tied in with that. It was no secret he was leaving the show and Shonda was mad at him.

Ha'ane Quichocho

This episode always hurts especially after having to experience unplugging a loved one from all the machines. It never doesn't hurt and as much of an asshole that he was, I love Derek and I miss him being on Greys 😭🥺

Valerie Jara

When i watched this when it aired, i was a complete mess, to the point where i almost threw up. This is my second time watching this episode and there’s a reason i haven’t watched it all these years. And i probably won’t watch this episode ever again. Too emotional.

Sydney

This is the first episode of greys I ever watched… lol. My mom was watching it live and I thought “this is a good show.” Then I watch it from the beginning.. oop

King LT

I have never liked Derek he was horrible but I cried his entire death like this took me out. side note I always felt like Yang’s awkward goodbye on her last episode was a sign Derek was dying soon.

_11

Regarding Dr. Penelope Blake (the younger doc who tried to help Derek) looking familiar, you're right! Samantha Sloyan also portrayed Jeannine Locke on Scandal, the presidential aide in S1-3 who was framed by Pope & Associates for having an affair with Fitz in the S3 premiere. AAs far as I know, she's the first instance of Shondaland Talent Reuse who appeared first on Scandal, then on Grey's, instead of the other way around.

Shin Yukina

So same. I didn't really like Derek BUT you're totally right. I feel this is not about his death but the impact on other characters. Like I was tearing up for Mer there. And of course Chasing fucking cars is playing while he dies.

William

Well... We are here.... phew

heather

ahhh

Juanjo

I hate that Meredith has been through SO much… Ugh this episode 😭

Gehazi Whitehurst

This is so off topic, but near the beginning when you paused the episode and then your dog disappeared a moment later, I burst out laughing😂I hate when my dog stares at me too.

Nikki S

I sobbed the whole episode. I cried my makeup off 😭

Nikki S

The other reactor I watch is about to get to the George episode from season 5 next so I’m gonna be sobbing again here soon lol.

Gehazi Whitehurst

I felt mad too when Derek died, thinking "why couldn't they just give him a peaceful goodbye??"...But if you think about it, there's not a logical way to get Derek off the show for good without ruining his character. He LOVES his kids and Meredith and the reason he quit his DC job was because he would never leave his kids and Meredith for good. I think the actor didn't plan on any ever returning, so there was no way to just say "he's working somewhere else and he's with his family at home even though you never see him!" But still damn, this episode is like a gut punch.

Alexis Cook

Im over here trying to get in the sad mood for this episode cause it makes me cry everytime even tho ive seen it a million times then you just snapped your head over at your dog and i died😂😭😭

Just Tika

I share your sentiments and wasn’t a fan of Derek by the end of his time on the show but the relationships he has are so deep in this like you said will likely affect so many people. He has children. He and his wife were just reconnecting. And this episode literally ruins me every time I watch it. I boo, hoo cried at the end. And it’s also so unexpected.

Alexis Cook

THIS NEVER GETS EASIER 😭😭😭OMGGG WHY AM I BALLING

Angelina Sargent

I do like how they portrayed Meredith's character this episode. The last few episodes was a good way to make her reaction feasible. She told him recently " I can live with out you, but I don't want too." And I think her knowing that, is what gave her the strength to pull the plug on him so fast. This episode literally is what makes the annoying will they, won't they break up episodes this season earlier make sense for me at least. We can actually see that she was thriving with out him when he was in dc. Shonda is an evil genius. Also I am not a Derek fan either. Hahaha. He's annoying.

Serenity La’sandra

I know we all may dislike Derek half the time tbh.. but I hate this so much for his character.. like he was this AMAZING neurosurgeon. That inoperable tumor he managed to get, that dude from the hospital… was amazing. And him being killed off in this way.. OFF BECAUSE OF A PROBLEM WITH HIS BRAIN.. his specialty and him narrating it the whole time.. HURT 💔 he was a dick half the time, and especially the previous couple seasons but I think we can all agree.. he was here from the very first episode.. he deserved better than this 😭💔

Ursula Evans

I usually skip this episode. Knew it was gonna hurt worse this rewatch and wow. I was on the ground sobbing lol.

Dijhir Williams

Its crazy that this is the episode that i catch up to 😭

LAB4

Have seen this ep over 10 times and sob every single time. I used to hate that they did this to him versus Yang, but I think for him it was necessary to die versus have us question why he would never visit his kids or be in future eps. it was unfortunately a necessary evil by shonda

Patricia Moore

I loved Derek and Meredith. The last few years he was an egotistical dick half the time but I looked at his character on a whole from day 1 til now. After this episode I swore I would not watch another greys episode or another Shonda show. It took me 4 years to start watching it again.but not weekly and that only lasted a couple of years. I haven’t watched another Shonda series. Not the fire/ambulance one, not HTGAWM and not Bridgerton. She’s brilliant her shows are as excellant, but killing off the person in scandal from Pope & associates. (Travis has passed the episode but still I don’t want to spoil it) and Derek let alone Lexi and Mark and George it’s too much. Also the putting couples together and breaking them up because she didn’t like the public dictating that she had to get Meredith and Derek back together and swore she would never listen to the audience again. I didn’t want to get invested in any more of her characters. (I later found out that Bridgestone is a book series and the shows follow that she doesn’t have the same kind of decisions but it’s principle now)

AprilDawn

I think what took me out was when Amelia told Meredith "You've never had to claw your way back from losing someone you love and until you do, cut me some slack" was a sign and I was shook when she said that, because, it was like dang girl, go easy on Meredith, she has dealt with a lot of stuff regardless that is just as bad, if not worse than what you dealt with. I do feel like Meredith reacted more upset when Derek got shot, she acted more scared then, but it could be just because she has children now and may feel like she has to keep it together more. I also thought when she told Derek "I can live without you, I just don't want to" was a sign that it would be coming soon too I just love this show, and I can rewatch every episode again and again with no issues. Not too many shows that I can do that with.

LAB4

Hahaha sorry for the confusion! At the end he said he wishes they just gave Derek the “Yang treatment” aka moving away for a better opportunity. So I was saying versus that I think it was necessary for Derek to die if he was leaving the show

Breadcrumbs

Meredith didn't "get" a social worker to look after her kids; the social worker was already there. Meredith literally showed up at the hospital in shock, then stayed in a state of shock and grief the entire time. It's so easy to say what you would've done when it's not you in the situation. Have some empathy.

Breadcrumbs

Yes, his impeding death was spoiled literally the day before (or maybe the day of) the episode airing by a magazine article that came out a little too early. I watched the series live at that point and was in a state of shock myself going into the episode because I couldn't believe what was about to happen.

Lacy Hause

I don’t know if it works anymore, but there used to be a phone number you could call and listen to Derek’s last voicemail to Meredith. I used to have it saved in my phone for years.

Kocia

Hey Breadcrumbs, you are right, I have not been in this situation (hopefully never will) and I commented based on how she had people around when bad things happened in previous seasons. I can see you have strong feelings about this episode and I understand grief and shock present in multiple ways. I am still standing by my opinion on this fictional character and the writing behind this and last few episodes. I didn't appreciate thick writing on how Mer's thriving without Derek nor Amelia's speech about losing someone. I think she deserved better. So did Derek. And all of us watching this for 11 seasons.