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Ali Rambles: Life, Reading Kafka & Being Alone :P (Patreon)

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2024-11-20 03:29:57
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I recorded this one before the youtube one today, hints why I said it was my first ramble since moving haha! xD I hope you are all doing well and take some time from your day to relax and chill ^_^

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Releothunder

Two uploads today you’re spoiling us again also if you ever decided to stream you can count on me to show up. I’m sure you’re just rusty you will be back to being a pro gamer in no time I’m sure. Also if you end up enjoying Elden ring or other souls likes I’d highly recommend lies of p it’s extremely good. That’s awesome to hear your enjoying fitness you will be buff Ali in no time. I started my diet and exercise routine a couple months ago and I’ve dropped about 40pounds on a high protein low calorie diet trying to keep my strength while i lose my excess weight since I let myself go a bit after my gym closed but I’m going to a new one soon. I’ve heard of metamorphosis but haven’t read it kafkas works definitely seem intriguing may have to check some of them out they definitely thought provoking. I’ve never worked a full time job from home but I’ve done some projects and other once off things from home but i totally get what you mean in definitely a bit of loner myself and being surrounded by others constantly definitely messes with my flow and on my days off or what not my family asks why I’m not making plans with friends and what not or will make plans for me then I gotta say no I can’t because I’ve got things i need to do they aren’t aware of or they just don’t understand it’s nice to hear that other have similar experiences though and that’s reassuring to me. I feel like a little burden I’ve been carrying fell off now thanks for yours thoughts Ali.

JanJan

Some game recommendations that I think you might enjoy, since you like RPGs and horror / psychological horror: SIGNALIS (psyc. horror + Resident Evil / Silent Hill-like) and Omori (psyc. horror / RPG). Of course when it comes to RPGs I cannot not recommend Undertale, and let me also throw in a personal favourite, even though it's less rpg and more walking simulator + puzzles, OneShot. (This is the first Ali Rambles I've listened to, so sorry if you've already mentioned these games in previous ones)

Noct

Nier is an amazing game and it's still beautiful today. It's also pretty difficult, so I wouldn't beat yourself up about having a hard time. You'll probably have several people offering, but feel free to ask any computer questions if they come up. I kinda mentioned it before, but that's one area of expertise I feel like I can actually assist others with. Well, at least employers seem to think so, lol. Definitely feel you on the "being alone" thing. It never becomes effortless to cut people out. It took me a long time to understand the importance of boundaries...and I can honestly say that I'm still working on that skill today. I really struggle with always having to provide justification to people. It's easy to tell yourself that you don't owe anyone anything, but it's a lot harder to actually internalize that. Also, as you sort of touched on, it's sometimes difficult to advocate for yourself without seeming like an asshole. Although, at that point it might be worth reconsidering if you want someone in your life who will make you go to those lengths just to communicate your needs. Like, wouldn't someone who supposedly cares WANT to understand? Sorry, I could go on...and I know I frequently do. I'll leave it at that, but it was nice to hear you talk about that even if it isn't the most comfy topic.

Noct
>>155847872

At first I read that as "I cannot recommend Undertale" and I was like :0

SeaKat

I can relate to the last section a lot because I actually work from home. (I might have told you before?) The time management and independence got me thinking. I might have to ramble a little bit on the next stream lol

Verrick

Oh God, I can relate to the stuff about remote working far too much! I do fully remote contracted webdev work Mon-Wed, and then work on my own gamedev work Thur-Sun sacrificing income, but trying to build towards a better future. People WILL try to steal your time. They never seem to understand it's hard work, nor take you seriously when you say you work from home or on your own business (especially family!). I've had to get very good at saying no to things - but this does seem to upset people... It feels like there's an inherent resistance/bias against being independent and trying to build a business or income. How do these people think the companies that normally employ people were started in the first place? 😅 Just got to keep fighting for that future I guess!

NonamewouldFit

Perfect thing to sleep to while holding my mimikyu plushie, thank you ali from a very recent alicat :D

Moy

I know there are a few of us PC gamers among the AliCats, so I'm sure there will be no shortage for help lol I think everyone who has built a computer before approaches things different, so it will be cool to see what people recommend. I've always wanted to play NieR, I think PlatinumGames is one of the best studios at creating a great combat system. I'll get to it eventually though... Same with Final Fantasy 7 remake lol I hate that they turned the remake into a trilogy, so I figured I would just wait until all 3 parts are out. I really like that you brought up Kafka after the gym and dieting talk. I have a collection of Kafka's work in my shelf, but I don't like reading it too much. You're right, a lot of it is him basically being depressed. When I read, I get immersed and my mood is affected. So it makes me really sad lol Kafka had a hard life, terrible relationship with dad, tuberculosis, and mental illness. Now, I'm not going to say that Kafka would be fine if he hit the gym Lol but I do think that everyone should do some sort of exercise. Not just for their physical wellbeing, but it does so much for you mentally. Yeah, you're right that it's not a fun conversation to have but it's one that should be had more often. I hate dieting, i almost never do but I try to workout everyday to maintain weight. The work from home conversation was pretty interesting. I have a sister that still lives at home and has had trouble with family. Old school family just don't get it. I rarely work from home but the person I live with works from home every day, when one of us is working, we're not really allowed to bother each other. You sounded a little sad while talking about this. Don't let this get to you, hit the gym :P lol but seriously, don't let it to you. Any decision that leads to self improvement and a better quality of life was/is a good decision.

Wheniks

Dying before even getting to a save point. Couldn’t be me lol #skillissue And for a sec I thought you meant the other metamorphosis by Shindo L 😳 because that one is built different

BloodyAzazel

Was listening to this during my road trip to a hospital visit. Very relaxing and good things I've heard you talk about. Also, once I heard you say you played Neir Automata, that had me going. 2B is a very cool character, not just from her "obviously" artwork(which I'm surprised you never drew her yet), but also gameplay wise. Ngl, I'm probably gonna be in the same boat as Alichu since soon I should be living alone depending if my company is too much. As far as I'm aware, I get your view on how living alone is, but honestly, everyone has their fare share of experiences.

alichuart
>>155843558

Lies of P is another game I’ve been wanting to play! I loved the art and vibe of it a lot when I watched Asmon play. Ever since then I’ve wanted to try it myself ^_^ That’s really cool about your exercise routine Releo, awesome job! I know it can be tough to get back into it but you got this :) I think valuing our alone time is something that many of us have gone through at one point or another for sure. I love hanging out with family and friends but it has to be a good balance for me, otherwise I start to feel too stuffy! I’m happy that I could talk about something others can relate to and thanks for your comment Releo! :D

alichuart
>>155847872

Hello JanJan and thank you for your comment! It’s always nice for me to read others suggestions and I appreciate them very much ^_^ I’ve played Undertale and loved it! Omori is one I’ve been wanting to play for a while now too so thanks for reminding me ✨ I’ve never heard of SIGNALIS or OneShot so I’ll have to check those out. I’m always up for anything similar to Resident Evil and Silent Hill! :)

alichuart
>>155849237

That makes me feel a lot better about Nier so thank you! 😭 I was thinking the entire time, “Damn, I suck!” lol. I also appreciate the computer help very much! It feels good knowing that I have some people here that know a lot about them so thanks a lot for that :D I completely understand the justification thing. That’s something that I still struggle with from time to time. I sometimes feel as though I need an “excuse” in order to say no or decline something. I try to tell myself that if I don’t want something that it’s ok to express that. It’s not my responsibility if the other person feels a certain way for being open about what I’m comfortable with. But like you said, it can be difficult to put into action. What’s important is that we try our best and be kind to ourselves!

alichuart
>>155849514

You should definitely do that, I think that would be an interesting conversation topic! :D

alichuart
>>155863916

I empathize with your comment very much! I hate to say it but the truth is that many of my family members have never taken my art seriously. And I don’t mean that they are hateful about it but more that they’ve seen it as a “hobby” despite the fact that it’s allowed me to live and eat 😅 I’ve gone through many spells of feeling disrespected over the years and have had many conversations trying to plead my case on it. I don’t think this is the case for everyone but I do feel as though some people are unwilling to change their mind on how they view things, even with proof and validation that you’re trying to build/create something. Like you said though, the only thing we can do is keep fighting for our future! 🤛 ✨

alichuart
>>155920409

Welcome my new Alicat, I hope you enjoy your time here! :D 🐱 ❤️ Also, a Mimikyu plushie is the best plushie you can have :3

alichuart
>>155933428

I’m also not a big fan that they split the FF7 game up that way. I much would have preferred it all to be together! Do you know if they’ve made a version where they’re all together yet? I definitely agree with you on the exercise for mental health benefits. While I do want to bulk up one big reason I’ve always exercised in the past is for exactly that reason. I do find that it impacts my mood a lot, so when I’m feeling down I find myself working out to feel better. I was a little sad/frustrated while talking about this topic, but still wanted to share since I felt it was something some of you probably deal with to. I think it was the realization that no matter how hard you try to prove yourself some people won’t respect your time. But it’s ok. One thing I’ve learned is that we can’t always change how others think but we can always improve how we treat ourselves! I do appreciate your comment and I’m definitely OK so thank you! :D

alichuart
>>155956733

To be fair I have a physical copy of that Metamorphosis too. Definitely a big favorite of mine :P

alichuart
>>156035572

Funny enough I did draw 2B a while back despite not having played yet haha! Her design is just too good, I couldn’t help myself. If you go back on my DA or other sites you can see it if you’re curious ^_^ I hope that you enjoy living on your own when the time comes! It’s definitely something that I value very much. I’m also happy that you enjoyed this ramble Azazel and hope you have a good weekend! :)

Moy
>>155933428

I have some bad news... Part 2 came out this year and Part 3 isn't expected until 2027. They're milking that cow for all it's worth. Well, thank you for being so open. Even through the Internet, I don't think it's easy to be vulnerable around what are essentially strangers.

Emeraldrop

Thank you for the rambles Alichu, I'm actually drawing and listening to this while waiting for my shift to start. I could certainly relate to your thing with your parents. Me and my parents, how we go about things is different so we conflict sometimes.

alichuart
>>156084764

I’m glad you enjoyed listening Emerald, thank you! I always loved listening to others ramble while I drew so it’s a cool feeling to know that I can do that for others 😊

strobi100

I really enjoyed you rambling Ali. I liked to draw a lot as a Kid and your wonderful Art inspires me to start drawing again!😊

Secular Succotash

Calico cat❌ Alico cat✅ The cat distribution service chose you Ali, you must accept this cat now lol Yo I would LOVE Ali streams! I wanna play Nier Automata someday, 2B is hot af (my phone tried to autocorrect to “ara” and that’s accurate too lol) I would like to play Elden Ring but I do not have the patience for Souls games. Glad to hear you’re getting more serious about your fitness goals and getting that protein in! It takes time to build muscle so don’t get discouraged! Also cottage cheese is delicious, my go-to breakfast is a burrito with ground turkey, eggs, and sriracha mayo all wrapped up in a low-carb tortilla. And same, I hold on to pumpkin spice as long as possible until peppermint mocha time roles around. I’ll have to start reading Kafka, sounds up my alley and I wanna start reading more . “To make yourself an inert mass” is especially relatable whenever I feel myself getting emotional, I don’t let myself engage and I refuse expressing what I feel in order to avoid revealing my emotions because I know that people don’t want to hear me “trauma dumping” even among my friends. But I’ll leave that there for privacy. Time and place y’know? Alone time is extremely important, not even just as a money thing. It’s also an introversion thing. Like when your social battery is recharged by being alone, literally any time spent with people drains you. Not even in a negative way, just in a way that it takes energy to socialize. It’s like having a “social budget” if that makes sense

alichuart
>>156261806

That makes me so happy to read, Strobi! If you ever draw anything feel free to share it on twitter/x if you have one, I’d love to see it. But more than anything I hope you have fun drawing! :)

alichuart
>>156317417

I think streaming would be fun sometime in the future! Just gotta get me a proper PC set up first. I’m saving for it though, just a little more time to get a good one :D I think I’m starting to notice some subtle changes and it’s awesome! Granted I did work out before but I think my arms are starting to get a little something. As for your go-to breakfast, it sounds delicious! I’ll have to try a breakfast burrito sometime :P I understand avoiding the act of revealing emotions (and recharging after socializing). I usually find myself in the role of listening rather than speaking, some of that being of my own choosing. So long as you have a means of expressing yourself in some way and getting out any negative feelings that’s what’s important. Everyone deserves to be heard, whether it’s through art, words, or however they choose to express themselves ❤️