"Venus Rising" by Vaunt + Why I Didn't Report... (Patreon)

Hello beloveds! I am so pleased to present to you this beautiful gallery shot by my modelographer friend Vaunt - She was the model who first inspired me to begin this Patreon journey! If you haven't checked out her page yet, pop on over there and tell her I said hello :)

She is also a fashion designer, world traveler, and a talented photographer (As seen in this photo!) I have shot video of her a few times in the past also, here is a quickie snippet of our most recent video collaboration: Cat and Mouse: VAUNT 

Anyway, in this photo series, we took the studio set-up outdoors for an eccentric, abstract theme. I started out wearing my nude lace bodysuit by Suzzlace - an indie designer I found on Etsy (whoohoo for ethical designers!) And of course, I ended up in-the-buff ;) 

My next post will show the BTS VIDEO from this shoot, so you can see me moving, talking, and posing in action! 

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***#WhyIDidntReport***

This movement is as jarring and triggering as the #metoo movement. I am really glad that this topic is being brought to the surface though, because for most of my life I have resigned to the fact that no one gives a shit about how people (like me) who have been abused, assaulted, or raped secretly push down their pain day after day. 

There were several years of my life I had completely surrendered to being a man's floor mat, their back-burner option, object for pleasure and/or atm machine... I was easy to manipulate, and very empathetic to tried to help them get back on their feet. I used to love "fixing" people... 

I feel obligated to have to tell the world the details of my assaults and rapes, but I still feel the shame and guilt over those situations so much that telling what happened I feel would only stir up more harm than good. 

I have read so many detailed accounts from friends, acquaintances, and strangers online over the past several days... it's honestly very scary, although very empowering too. I almost feel safer now that it's becoming more common for victims to come forward. 

There are many reasons I didn't report. (This list refers to multiple different scenarios with different people involved, and I am intentionally leaving the details vague) I didn't want to be seen as a "drama queen", I didn't think his friends would believe me because "he would never do that", his mom had a hard enough time dealing with him and I didn't want to add more struggle to her hardships, I didn't want to deal with police (they probably wouldn't take me seriously anyway), I was underage, I was worried I would be attacked in the future to "get back at me" for reporting, I had provided consent in the past, alcohol and/or drugs were involved... 

I don't feel the need to call out people... they know what they did to me... one of them even kindof apologized 12 years after.... well not for the specific incident... but for "the way they treated me"... one completely denied it was non-consensual... telling me "I twisted the scenario in my head"... whatever dude...  Anyway, apologies are nice. They do help, a little. 

I am pleased to report that those days of being a door-mat are far in my past, and today I am a much stronger person, though I do suffer the psychological side effects of my past, I now have the wisdom and strength not to put up with that sort of treatment. 

Of course that does not protect me from a stranger jumping out of the bushes and attacking me,  but it does help me navigate my social and business interactions with more self-respect. 

Anyway, I hope what I am trying to say here makes sense, if I mis-worded myself in a way that seems insincere, careless, or offensive, that was not my intention (I have somehow unintentionally offended quite a few people on facebook when I open up about anything related to morals or politics in any way... ) 

It's scary for me to even talk about this topic at all... I don't want to be perceived as weak, I strive to be positive and strong... but I am also human... and pain and struggle is part of my life just as it is everyone else's... 

I hope YOU are feeling connected today, because I sure am feeling more connected to YOU now that I have exposed a little more of myself. 

I appreciate you for supporting me, and reading my thoughts :)

Peace and Love, 

Kristy

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