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Next month I think I need to create a rule within myself. When it's 'time of the month' don't talk to ANYONE!!!

During my iboga ceremony, I learned that all the rage and intense sadness that comes up during this time of the month, is represses anger and sadness that has been unresolved for many years, and the slightest trigger in the present, brings years of those feelings to the surface. it often results in me burning bridges, as i have this month, and acting from a reactive place rather than responding once the triggers have dissolved. I don't seem to have the awareness yet, to really factor it into my schedule, that my behaviour is really quite different around this time, and it's potentially quite a turn off for most people.

The good aspects that came out of it were that on Saturday when I was very sad, I started writing a story about my life, and it really connected me to my writing again, and now i am writing every day and loving it. It can be a really creative time, when invested wisely. A good chance to feel the emotions and say hello to them so they feel felt and honoured. Every time I observe my feelings instead of pushing them away, i can feel my body relax in gratitude. Thank you for seeing me, it says.